What should have never been

I should have taken a picture when
we visited the mountains ten years ago
and when we were happy,
I should have kept it on the mantelshelf
and walked away, because all these years
of staying together for the sake of keeping
some false fire going has only brought me
unbearable guilt and heartbreak,
I once thought we’d last, but it’s that
very foolish idealism that’s eating me
alive and keeping me in a prison of anguish
of my making,
I’ve decided now to stop looking out of
the window and wait upon a drizzle,
a faint rain that’ll slowly wash away the
ugliness, but instead go out there and get
a life without you that
I’ve so thoroughly missed.

© Nitin Lalit Murali (2018)

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